Love is such a stupid thing..you know there is a girl..I met her at my previous office..I used to care for her so much like I never did for anything else, unfortunately she was engaged with sm1 else..however I never expected her to love me but I thought we could be very good friends, but I found out that regardless of whatever I did for her she was not ready to accept me as a friend and not only as a person of use..she finally broke my heart when she didnt do a simple thing for me..I made a cute pencil sketch of us nd told her to paint it as it could be a good souvenir of the good time for both of us..she simply forgot it, and even though I reminded her several time about that..she never really did it..and I found out how less valuable I was to her..so I just tried to move on...I even had to leave my office because things got really messy as I used to protect her so much etc..so yesterday I left my office and she never said a single word:( I tried my best not to show my sadness but I guess I am never really so good at hiding my emotions. Although the relationship between me nd my colleagues has not been very well, but I guess there was something, something worth caring for..at least on my part! Yes, I was sad because my colleagues didnt even come to say good bye to me,at times I felt like I was going to cry but I controlled it....maybe I wanted to say "friends, dont misunderstand me, things really got out of my control...maybe the fault was on both our part but I would like to take the blame for you,because right at this moment I am feeling for you all nd I willb missing you"' but no one came..I know I could not say these things even if they came to me, it's hard to talk when you deal with so many emotions..but that girl didnt even look at me for once, so yesterday was not a very good day for me. So just a few minutes ago I did a bad thing, I opened her(that girl) gmail to see if there was anything she had chatted with someone about me(offcourse I felt like a stalker!), and found out a few pinterest pictures..like images of cute bracelets,accessories..and suddenly I felt like if I could buy them for her..love is stupid nd I hope to forget her soon
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